Sunday, October 31, 2004
Jenni has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people. (Actually it is quite difficult for someone to "break into" my circle of trust)
Jenni's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Jenni that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Jenni also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Jenni is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Jenni's self-concept is artificially low. Jenni will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Jenni to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Jenni is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.
Jenni is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.
In reference to Jenni's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Jenni slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Jenni can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.
Diplomacy is one of Jenni's best attributes. She has the ability to say what others want to hear. She can have tact with others. She has the ability to state things in such a way as to not offend someone else. Jenni can disagree without being disagreeable. (Sadly, this is where I differ from the "analysis" -- I am not quite as diplomatic as I would love to be...)
Jenni is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.
When Jenni expresses an opinion on a issue she will stick to that opinion, and probably will not change her mind. In other words... Jenni is stubborn. (as my mother would say....AMEN!!) When she is wrong about something that she has decided upon, she will have trouble admitting she is wrong. Changing Jenni's mind can be very difficult. Once Jenni makes up her mind, she doesn't want to be confused with the facts!
Jenni is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes. Jenni will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Jenni an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other. When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Jenni is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story. Jenni is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.
Those of you who know me personally, what do you think????
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
Any words of encouragement from anyone who has gone through it?
Monday, October 25, 2004
Sunday, October 24, 2004
Homecoming is such a busy weekend -- at least it is for us. Thankfully I wasn't in a social club, so no need to get up before the crack of dawn for breakfast, but making a 9:30 parade is hard enough. (I mean really, anytime you are up before 9:30 or 10:00 on a Saturday is way too early!) Then visiting with folks all over campus....then off to the football game. It is hard to get excited about a football game that is so crowded you can hardly see anyone in the stands, never mind to watch a team that rarely wins. Just not my thing.
After the football game we went to my cousin Lauren's house to visit her week old baby, Lindsey. She was so precious....I think I could have sat and watched her for a long time. Then we ran home to eat and change clothes before the musical (this year it was Kiss Me, Kate) -- good show, but rather long. Made it hard to get up for early church this morning at Highland. Then the lovely drive back to Dallas from Abilene.
Whew....I'm about to fall over. Definitely an early to bed night.....
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
Well, this past week was the enchilada, salad, queso meal....and since I am officially on the weight loss track via Weight Watchers (11 pounds so far!!), the enchiladas and queso were pretty much out (although I admit to eating some of the queso -- you just can't completely deny yourself!). So, on to the salad. I've never been a huge salad fan, although in recent years I'm coming to like them more and more. Which is good, because if you leave off all the high fat toppings (cheese, bacon, eggs, ham, real dressing) and go for veggies (broccoli, carrots, green peppers) and lite dressing, a salad is a very healthy meal!
So, here's the scoop on my new favorite salad.....I'm putting it here in a single serve version (just multiply to make it for a group) -- which, for any WW folks out there, is only 5 points for a pretty filling meal:
2 cups mixed greens
1/2 cup Ranch Style beans (drained and rinsed)
1/4 cup fat free shredded cheddar cheese
Fat Free Catalina dressing, to taste (2 Tbsp is a serving)
Tony Chachere's Creole Seasoning, to taste
Diced tomatoes, optional
Mix greens, beans, and cheese. Toss with dressing. Sprinkle Creole seasoning to taste. Enjoy!
Thursday, October 14, 2004
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
This weekend, I finally made it to Lowe's to get a 30" screen door (pretty difficult to find one that small). Got it home fairly easily because my parents were in town and it fit in the van. Called maintenance on my way to work yesterday morning and, VOILA! came home to a screen door installed!
The weather here has been so nice the past few nights, I've even slept with the window open in my room! Now, I can enjoy that fresh air in the front part of my apartment.....maybe one day, I'll live somewhere that I can even get a cross-breeze!
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
I work for an oil and gas company and all the guys/gals in our geology and engineering groups have TWO of these monitors. Since I am in the lowly accounting group, my computer usage is just as high and constant, but the complexity of the work I do just couldn't justify the need for a 21.3" flat panel LCD monitor like those who juggle maps all day long. BUT, I wanted one. Badly. I drooled over, and came quite close to lusting over, these monitors. I was on the "possibly will get one next year when we might think about putting them in the budget" group.
So, bad news is, one of our engineers quit last week. Good news is, the other CPA and I in the office got to split his monitors! Wahoo!! (Still can't justify needing TWO of them, though!) PLUS, his computer was newer than mine and I got to trade his wireless keyboard and mouse for my traditional wired versions. What this means is that the IT department won't complain anymore that I have the buttons backwards on my mouse (only way that I could type without hitting my elbow repeatedly on my desk was to become a lefty on the mouse) and I get the luxury of another computer accessory that I love.
A bad thing about technology, though, that I was reminded of this afternoon at a meeting, is how utterly we are dependent on it now. If the computer crashes, all our work is lost. If the printer won't print, we can't get anything done. If cell phones, emails, and fax machines aren't working, we can't communicate with anyone. Kinda strange how quickly our culture has evolved into this total reliance on technology. Seems like we really should be relient on something else.....oh, yeah. That's God.
Sunday, October 03, 2004
So, a few days ago I promised further reviews of the Kristin Billerbeck novel that I bought on Tuesday. I spent the weeknights reading "What a Girl Wants" before I went to sleep. Without giving away any pertinent details, this book is about a single girl as she tries to navigate life, family, relationships, career and her faith. So, I was almost finished with book 1 and on Friday stopped off at Borders (had a 20% off coupon!) to get book 2 "She's Out of Control." Suffice it to say, I spent most of Saturday finishing "What a Girl Wants" and completely devouring "She's Out of Control." Let me tell you this girl, Ashley Wilkes Stockingdale, is totally me -- well, not really totally me -- I don't drive an Audi TT convertible, live in the Silicon Valley or spend lots of money on famous label clothes, but aside from that, she could be my alter ego. So, anyway, I'd highly recommend these books (as I wait in anticipation for book 3 to come in Spring 2005!) to anyone - especially anyone still single. (Note of caution to the guys: this genre is "chick lit" according to Ms. Billerbeck, so you might want to steer clear. :-)
In other news:
- my grandmommy is home from the hospital now and doing much better. Thanks so much for your prayers.
- I've mentioned that my sister is getting married next year? Well, in anticipation of me in a bridesmaid dress, I've decided to be proactive in being happy with my body....so two weeks ago I joined Weight Watchers online. And so far (with the official weigh-in on Monday mornings) I am almost 10 pounds down! Yippee!!! I don't know exactly what has made it happend so quickly - but somehow the combination of the right amounts of the right foods and intentional exercise really does work! And it also helps if you are motivated. Which I am.
With all that said, I am off to bed now. Kinda wish that I had been able to attend the Zoe conference this year. But the weekend at home with nothing planned may just have been more refreshing than the rigors of travel to Nashville (aka Nashvegas according to Mae). So, this year I'll live vicariously through the commentary of Matt Elliott and put it on the calendar for next year.
Happy Monday everyone!